Monday, October 18, 2004
Friday, September 24, 2004
using glen's com..
cant fucking use my com to blog.
gave daniel a massage, gave kok yi a massage, gave glen's friend patrick a massage...
hahax, good for my hands...
mus coming back today..
i like giving massages.
friends of dee know this well...
muahahhax.
how's the family sitution?
still tensed i suppose.
but its getting better.
cried myself to sleep twice.
its frustrating.
very.
sindhu says to live life for myself.
ive been living shite for me.
i havent led my life ever.
i wanted to do design.
they didnt let me. said i wouldnt be tht good in it.
hands are vibrating.
i think its from massaging so much.
havent been practising palm strength in a while..
sigh.
should i go kovan?
sch's over. its 1148.
been hanging out in the atrium since 11.
oh we did our CATs skit just now.
i was the butch.
hehex.
it was good lahr.
hey daniel is cute.
yeah.
maybe its coz of my fetish for tall guys.
but yeah, daniel IS cute.
hhahax.
insaneness.
miss mus.
today. cant wait for today..yay:)
cant fucking use my com to blog.
gave daniel a massage, gave kok yi a massage, gave glen's friend patrick a massage...
hahax, good for my hands...
mus coming back today..
i like giving massages.
friends of dee know this well...
muahahhax.
how's the family sitution?
still tensed i suppose.
but its getting better.
cried myself to sleep twice.
its frustrating.
very.
sindhu says to live life for myself.
ive been living shite for me.
i havent led my life ever.
i wanted to do design.
they didnt let me. said i wouldnt be tht good in it.
hands are vibrating.
i think its from massaging so much.
havent been practising palm strength in a while..
sigh.
should i go kovan?
sch's over. its 1148.
been hanging out in the atrium since 11.
oh we did our CATs skit just now.
i was the butch.
hehex.
it was good lahr.
hey daniel is cute.
yeah.
maybe its coz of my fetish for tall guys.
but yeah, daniel IS cute.
hhahax.
insaneness.
miss mus.
today. cant wait for today..yay:)
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
using fanny's com to blog.
cant blog using mine. always a blue screen that pops up around the create post box. man..
*fanny peeps over*
hehex.
man, im bored.. sleepy.
havent studied that damn POA.
oh fuckkk. al and his damn friend closed my template window in my com... shitpissfuckcuntcocksuckermotherfuckertitsfartturdandtward.
tht was a good release.
never mind. its Al afterall. smoking buddy. haishx. "and this is how we do reds back where we come from..."
hahax, insane-ness.
i feel FAT. dee feels bloaty pudgy flabby fat. i use to not give a damn.. wait, ive always given a damn, i just dont wanna show it. now all i want is a huge sweater to cover the lard that i am.. sigh, sweater wherefore art thou. im wearing the pants where SKM commented that i put on weight. SKM stands for Stupid Korean Man for those of you that don't know.. he's my dad's business partner who's a shitpissfuckcuntcocksuckermotherfuckertitsfartturdandtward.
haishx.
not feeling very pretty too. cake my eyelashes with black mascara in the attempt to make my eyes look prettier. what facades you create dee. what facades you create.... open your eyes to what you dont want to see? yourself? see myself in the mirror. see what people call attractive. eew.
ewww.
define what beauty is. gawddamnit define it to me. beauty is in the eye of the beholder. fucking hell tht term is so overused. then everything's beautifiul huh. tht hunchbacked hag at the side of the road smelling like last week's shite with warts on her face oozing out pus. yeah fucking beautiful. lets screw her. gawd.
*bangs forehead onto wall. blood and pieces of broken skull splinters everywhere*
im trying to stop my brain from thinking. it happens when im stupid. oh wait, thats, like all the , like time, like, like! fuck. shut up dee... shut the fuck up dee.
ok im leaving.
fuck it.
i miss mus.
friday. waiting for friday.
cant blog using mine. always a blue screen that pops up around the create post box. man..
*fanny peeps over*
hehex.
man, im bored.. sleepy.
havent studied that damn POA.
oh fuckkk. al and his damn friend closed my template window in my com... shitpissfuckcuntcocksuckermotherfuckertitsfartturdandtward.
tht was a good release.
never mind. its Al afterall. smoking buddy. haishx. "and this is how we do reds back where we come from..."
hahax, insane-ness.
i feel FAT. dee feels bloaty pudgy flabby fat. i use to not give a damn.. wait, ive always given a damn, i just dont wanna show it. now all i want is a huge sweater to cover the lard that i am.. sigh, sweater wherefore art thou. im wearing the pants where SKM commented that i put on weight. SKM stands for Stupid Korean Man for those of you that don't know.. he's my dad's business partner who's a shitpissfuckcuntcocksuckermotherfuckertitsfartturdandtward.
haishx.
not feeling very pretty too. cake my eyelashes with black mascara in the attempt to make my eyes look prettier. what facades you create dee. what facades you create.... open your eyes to what you dont want to see? yourself? see myself in the mirror. see what people call attractive. eew.
ewww.
define what beauty is. gawddamnit define it to me. beauty is in the eye of the beholder. fucking hell tht term is so overused. then everything's beautifiul huh. tht hunchbacked hag at the side of the road smelling like last week's shite with warts on her face oozing out pus. yeah fucking beautiful. lets screw her. gawd.
*bangs forehead onto wall. blood and pieces of broken skull splinters everywhere*
im trying to stop my brain from thinking. it happens when im stupid. oh wait, thats, like all the , like time, like, like! fuck. shut up dee... shut the fuck up dee.
ok im leaving.
fuck it.
i miss mus.
friday. waiting for friday.
Friday, September 17, 2004
oh mus called me from camp!
feroz didnt tell me tht he called.
eating at adam doing a fag and he didnt tell me tht mus called.
guess you cant trust a criminal after all.
*shrugs*
but there's still the problem of the girl at his house who said she was his adik when he's the freaking youngest child in the family.
liar, liar pants on fire.
but he called.
shocked he did.
was clenching my heart while talking.
hah.
he said he brought my pic along with him.
the one where i had cornrows.
hahax, HIPHOP.
i was with victor then. breakdancer.
hah. im a mainstreamwhore. now im into punk. screw me.
"im not okayyyy. im not okayyyy. im not okayyyyyy. im not oooookayyyyyyyyyyyy. you wear me out"
hahax, where's tht from? i forgot.
hahx.
anw, guess im still with him.
i guess
i guess
i guess.
dee has long hair.
dee cried to two teachers just now.
"im not okayyyyy." muahahahax
dee. what a name.
who's dee? me!
gah.
let me tell you what im wearing to poly today.
bright bandung pink Fragile tee, Gio "look-like-tapered-but-is-actually-drop-waist-slimfit" jeans, brown vinyl leather adidas shoes and bright red and black vinyl leather sling bag, with a dumb ol' post pet cartoon on the back. thats why i only use one side of the bag. muahahx. LAMEx.
im in the internet cafe in the library. there's a jap girl chatting up with the loser greasy hair guy beside me. she's just being naive-ly friendly i suppose, but i bet the guy beside me has images of her wanking him already.
sigh.
eww, im beside a guy who has images of another girl wanking him. eww. he's pudgy too.
im sucha bitch.
gahx.
feroz didnt tell me tht he called.
eating at adam doing a fag and he didnt tell me tht mus called.
guess you cant trust a criminal after all.
*shrugs*
but there's still the problem of the girl at his house who said she was his adik when he's the freaking youngest child in the family.
liar, liar pants on fire.
but he called.
shocked he did.
was clenching my heart while talking.
hah.
he said he brought my pic along with him.
the one where i had cornrows.
hahax, HIPHOP.
i was with victor then. breakdancer.
hah. im a mainstreamwhore. now im into punk. screw me.
"im not okayyyy. im not okayyyy. im not okayyyyyy. im not oooookayyyyyyyyyyyy. you wear me out"
hahax, where's tht from? i forgot.
hahx.
anw, guess im still with him.
i guess
i guess
i guess.
dee has long hair.
dee cried to two teachers just now.
"im not okayyyyy." muahahahax
dee. what a name.
who's dee? me!
gah.
let me tell you what im wearing to poly today.
bright bandung pink Fragile tee, Gio "look-like-tapered-but-is-actually-drop-waist-slimfit" jeans, brown vinyl leather adidas shoes and bright red and black vinyl leather sling bag, with a dumb ol' post pet cartoon on the back. thats why i only use one side of the bag. muahahx. LAMEx.
im in the internet cafe in the library. there's a jap girl chatting up with the loser greasy hair guy beside me. she's just being naive-ly friendly i suppose, but i bet the guy beside me has images of her wanking him already.
sigh.
eww, im beside a guy who has images of another girl wanking him. eww. he's pudgy too.
im sucha bitch.
gahx.
dont let the moonlight leave
i dont want to see my bed so empty
(stay with me)
dont let the sunshine in
i dont want to face reality right now
(dont leave me)
dont wake me up now
coz if i do then you'll disappear
(please dont go)
let me sleep and dream of you
let me close my eyes
and imagine...
that ur right there
let me dreaam of us together
let me stay with you
and imagine....
that its all for real
can i lie beside of you
as the moon stares down at us
(stay with me)
can i hold you close to me
and make believe that you won't ever leave
(dont leave me)
can i say three words to you
as the night air remains as witness
(please dont go)
let me sleep and dream of you
let me close my eyes
and imagine..
that you're right there
let me dream of us together
let me stay with you
and imagine..
that its all for real
let me sleep and dream of you
let me sleep and dream somemore
let me sleep and dream of you
let me sleep and dream somemore
let me sleep and dream of you
let me sleep and dream somemore
let me sleep and dream
that you'll always be right there by my side....
not bad for someone who cant play shizit. i got the melody worked out too.... any takers?*smiles*
i dont want to see my bed so empty
(stay with me)
dont let the sunshine in
i dont want to face reality right now
(dont leave me)
dont wake me up now
coz if i do then you'll disappear
(please dont go)
let me sleep and dream of you
let me close my eyes
and imagine...
that ur right there
let me dreaam of us together
let me stay with you
and imagine....
that its all for real
can i lie beside of you
as the moon stares down at us
(stay with me)
can i hold you close to me
and make believe that you won't ever leave
(dont leave me)
can i say three words to you
as the night air remains as witness
(please dont go)
let me sleep and dream of you
let me close my eyes
and imagine..
that you're right there
let me dream of us together
let me stay with you
and imagine..
that its all for real
let me sleep and dream of you
let me sleep and dream somemore
let me sleep and dream of you
let me sleep and dream somemore
let me sleep and dream of you
let me sleep and dream somemore
let me sleep and dream
that you'll always be right there by my side....
not bad for someone who cant play shizit. i got the melody worked out too.... any takers?*smiles*
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
oh my gawd.... i can post!!!!!!!!!!!
yay, fucking yay..
yay, fucking yay..
updates abt my life?
iqah broke up with me. but still friends. but it hurts.
mus buih aku on the last night we were suppose to spend together before he went to ns.
bastard.
two gone at the same time.
gerek kan?
haishx.
dee turned 17.
did u know?
hahax.
dad making me quit floorball..
i came home at 12 last night.
wasnt my fucking fault.
slept in the train.
missed the last one back.
took a cab from punggol.
love the taxi driver.
i only had eleven dollars and he took it. the fare was 12 plus.
taxi drivers rock.
met knew ppl, while getting to know mus,though. i gained more than lost actually. gained a handbag, gained free food, free fags, gained new friends. lost a bit of weight. win quite a lot though. hahax. but lost him.
haishx.
dont think he ever got over his gf.
maybe i was his last romp before ns.
sigh.
always the tool, never the carpenter.
Friday, August 27, 2004
oh i wrote a song when i was at work..
so emo, hahax..
[she] got drunk yesterday.
no, 2 days ago..
yah, silly girl.
ooh, gig tomorow. rp. yay for my crez juniors. yaYyY..=D
meeting zaph also.. haishx.... how to wake up so early lah.... hahax... i have to go home and change some more.. im at nenek's house.. with oh so darling riya and rakin...they are the cutest cousins in the world.. look under "ooh randomness" i think they should be there. hahax.
oh my aunty is laughing like hyena. insane-ness.
ucuan(aunty):"hadi (my cousin) girlfriend kau masih Ayu?"
hadi:"tak dah tukar"
ucuan:"abeh dah tukar ke ape? kayu?
mamadah(older aunty): [sampuk]"no, dah tukar ke LAYU!"hahahaahahahahx.
oh and mamadah also said"perut ade cacing, bawah ade loceng" tebiat....
tebiat arh my aunty.. you should see hari raya... insane-ness...
ok then bye!
so emo, hahax..
[she] got drunk yesterday.
no, 2 days ago..
yah, silly girl.
ooh, gig tomorow. rp. yay for my crez juniors. yaYyY..=D
meeting zaph also.. haishx.... how to wake up so early lah.... hahax... i have to go home and change some more.. im at nenek's house.. with oh so darling riya and rakin...they are the cutest cousins in the world.. look under "ooh randomness" i think they should be there. hahax.
oh my aunty is laughing like hyena. insane-ness.
ucuan(aunty):"hadi (my cousin) girlfriend kau masih Ayu?"
hadi:"tak dah tukar"
ucuan:"abeh dah tukar ke ape? kayu?
mamadah(older aunty): [sampuk]"no, dah tukar ke LAYU!"hahahaahahahahx.
oh and mamadah also said"perut ade cacing, bawah ade loceng" tebiat....
tebiat arh my aunty.. you should see hari raya... insane-ness...
ok then bye!
Thursday, August 26, 2004
oh man hanaffie from madrasah is here in macdonalds...hanaffie, the guy who thinks im very alim.. oooh fook.he's close to uztad. oh fook. exposed hair and exposed skin is not good. *faints*
anyway..just talked to suhail. he's here in mac too. i miss beng wan.. i do..
2 yrs of primary school.
i went to 3 different primary schools.. i have many aquaintances. sigh. and i leave after 2 yrs. not much bonding. sigh
im going to die this sunday. madrasah... die.
oh im looking forward to the aaw thing... yay... finally some life in crescent...
sigh.
anyway..just talked to suhail. he's here in mac too. i miss beng wan.. i do..
2 yrs of primary school.
i went to 3 different primary schools.. i have many aquaintances. sigh. and i leave after 2 yrs. not much bonding. sigh
im going to die this sunday. madrasah... die.
oh im looking forward to the aaw thing... yay... finally some life in crescent...
sigh.
